April 30

Day started off dull. Arawin Raj called up to go to dentist to check his tooth. Was bit reluctant but later went with him. Paid 7900/- to his fees. Preethi called up and shouted saying i did some kind of harmful thing so that Sidhaarth isn't eating properly! Seriously?? Why on earth will i do such kind of things to my son?

Till date Preethi isn't even understanding the fact that it's due to her negative parents, we both are living apart or Sidhaarth is suffering. I don't know how long these idiots are going to live not being happy while they're alive and also causing others life to be in jeopardy. 

Sometimes I feel bad in getting married to the wrong person and family. Wish I could get a time travel clock where I could travel to my school finished version of myself explaining how much sufferings I'll be going through in life in even falling in love or getting married. I just wish to put a full stop that year only so that i won't face any of the hardships I'm going through at the moment.

I've a loan to pay of 1.2Cr at the moment and i know for sure I'll be completing all of it by this year. I'm planning to do the registration of the house and immediately sell it once done so that if i get around 80L from the house, my loans will come down to 40L and i can easily payback this amount before registration itself.

The happiest moment of my life is when i start travelling the world due to the bank balance of 5.35Cr in my bank account. That day is going to come very soon! 

Diary writing :)

Women's Diary:

Yesterday night we had a terrible fight for a small thing. We went to bed and dint talk with each other. I got up late in the morning but I could make his breakfast on time before he left for the office. But he dint even care to see what had been prepared and left to office without saying a word.

Today is our anniversary and he dint even care to wish me. I called him several times during his office time and he just hung up all the time saying he was busy or was in a meeting etc etc.

Life is getting darker to me day by day and I don't know how I am going to handle the future days. It had been two years since we had married and there was not a single occasion wherein he disliked me or had a big fight with me.

Last week also we went out for shopping and had a good time. We also had a dinner at a good restaurant.

I hope things get better soon and he don't have a rough corner to me. God, please shower your blessings on me and I pray for him as well to be happy all the time.

He came home late and was angry still. I asked him sorry and he dint even reply back.

When I called him for having dinner, he said he already had dinner outside. There had not been a single day wherein he had eaten dinner without me in the last two years.

I am beginning to worry that if I am not a perfect match to him. I also doubt if he had found a better girl than me and find happiness being with her.

Even if he says the same, I would walk out of his life. I just want him being happy all the time and I will do anything that makes the current situation better.

God, I am signing off the diary now hoping that I could get a good sleep today. Good night.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Men's Diary:

India lost the match.